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We run back to each other when it’s convenient. We know that in the end, we’re meant for each other but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we’re okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it’s that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.

Its been awhile...

Do you remember its been awhile by staind? What a great song...


Tonight was a big wake up call for myself...We found that we were just floating...that is my biggest fear, is to just float thru life...not taking the good with the bad...running when things got to hard...

That is not the person I have become...That is not the person I am trying to be...life isnt what I made it seem...Im not putting forth the effort I told myself I would...

From the hips

Its a great song...

Hope you notice the way it feels when we kiss...

This band is amazing! Its a shame they broke up.
A reason that I love this band as much as I do...is because this was Brad and my first dates....and this concert was our very first kiss. It was the cutest thing is the world how he tried to kiss me. We were sitting there, listening to the first band...and kinda talking crap because they were not the best...So Brad closes his eyes and listens for a minute...when I ask what he was doing, he tells me that I need to close my eyes because they sound better...So I do this....But I guess I didn't wait long enough...because I opened my eyes and he was super close... the dork that we are, we made a joke about that not working out...so instead, he just kisses me. After that...It was like to kids in high school. We couldnt keep our hands off of each other. That was seriously the best date day/ night.

Even tho we spent some time apart...He is amazing. And I truly couldn't ask for anyone better than him.


Im such a sap! But I cant help it...You would be too, if he was yours....

Happy 90th Birthday Grandma!

This weekend was my grandmas 90th birthday. Can you believe it! She is such a amazing person. It was such a amazing weekend. Cathy and Jordan came into town and also my long lost uncle Ray came. It was weird. But grandma enjoyed it.

I have decided that I have the best family in the world. I am so extremely lucky to have the cousins I do. Lacee, Court and Jordan are the best. They are the sisters I have never had. I cant believe we how much fun we have when we are all together. I mean all my cousins are amazing. I am very lucky to have all of them in my life.

I couldnt imagine life with out them...............

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!!!!

The last hour...

How dramatic am I???

Its been a hard day. I am leaving here in about an hour and I dont know if I will see Brad before I go. He has been getting off and being home by 330 but who knows about today. I made him take his phone with him to let me know if he will be here by the time I need to go. I am hoping he is! Its kinda frustrating to know that he might not be. Ugh.

I hate goodbyes...even if they are see you laters. I mean, its almost worse.In this case it is because I dont know when I will see him again. My mom told me to stop thinking of it that way. But I cant help it. Its only a couple of months, she says. But a couple of months, things can COMPLETELY change. Life can be turned upside down in a instant. Maybe I am being just a negative sally...but I cant help it.

I have a few things to look forward for tomorrow. My grandma is turning 90 years old tomorrow. Isnt that crazy! I only hope to live a good life like she did. But my aunt Cathy and Cousin Jordan came down from Portland and will be here for the weekend. SO that will be nice to see them. Jordan is bring me, my bridesmaid dress. Im excited to try it on. Its a pretty dress. I am also excited to see her wedding dress. My uncle Ray is town as well. I havent seen him in years. So thats nice of him to come down for grandmas birthday. Friday night, I have a baby shower for my cousin Nikki. She is having a baby boy here in a few months. So thats exciting. Then Saturday off to pick bailey up and be with her for a little on saturday. Then out to My uncle Scotts for Grandmas birthday. And Sunday is the Super Bore...HMMM...I mean the Super bowl. :) Monday I start my new job. So I have alot to look forward to for the weekend....But ill be lame and say that I wish I would be with Brad.

Well, I guess, I should go and finish packing...