Heading back to the real world

Tomorrow I am supposed to leave, and I just am not sure if I will be able to...

I mean. I have to go back.

I have to go to work Monday.

But I hate the idea of leaving Brad by himself. I know that he is a big boy and can take complete care of himself. I just dont want dont like the idea of him being alone. I know how much he dislikes it and I think thats why I am having a hard time leaving.

Well that, and back to the question I was faced with last time he left, When will I see him again? Thats the part I dont like.

I dont like that it changes.

I know the reality of the situation...doesnt mean I am happy with it. I just want him home with me...I just want it to be the time , when I get home from work, he is there,waiting for me....

I just want the time when it will be just him and I and we face every situation without the distance, just next to each other.

I know that time will come. I know that time will be here before I know it. I just want that time to be now.